Kurt posted an interesting question on his blog. He’s in the middle of mid-terms so I figure a response would be good here. So here is the question:
Could it be that the Bible is not designed to answer questions about God, humanity, and the relationship between the two so much as to encourage the asking of questions regarding these topics? Consider how God renamed Jacob (which means heel) to Israel (which means to struggle, wrestle, or strive with God) after the man wrestled with an angel of the Lord in the attempt to find out God’s true name. Perhaps Christians, as a people who are called into coinheritance with the people of Israel are, as its namesake implies, meant to struggle, wrestle, and strive with God and the sacred texts regarding God, humanity, and our relationship rather than mindlessly submitting to whatever simplistic, legalistic, or philosophic claims that we wished it had.
I think this is a good question. Throughout history, we have always wanted rules and laws. Israel pleaded with God for a king to rule over them. The Pharisees had their rules. Today, we have the Bible. Can we not just live? Do we have to settle? Is it ok to not be content? These are all questions that I have asked recently. Is there more to life than work? Why is it so hard to find a community to fellowship with? These are all questions that we can’t readily find answers to in the Bible (I could be wrong, but I’ve searched).
I also find myself wondering if I have gone astray some how. Have I lost the spark? Why is it so hard to be loving as of late? Has my heart become hard? If it has, then why was my heart hurting on Sunday when I was being preached at and not being taught? Is it ok for me to ask these questions? I think so. I think these are the questions of a person being awoken. The questions of a person not ok with just existing. I have become weary of searching for answers to questions. I want to live now. I want to enjoy living with my wife.
I was told once that I was searching for God. I was wading out in a river and wanting more and didn’t realize I was waist deep in the river amidst the current. I could be swept away at any time, but I was spending my time searching for God and didn’t realize I was already surrounded and in His presence. I fear that many of us fall into that trap. We search for the exact answer to the question and forget to enjoy the pursuit of the answer. We search for truth and collect truth. We then have contests to see who has more truth. We miss the point when we compare who has more truth. That’s not the purpose of truth. The truth sets us free, we shouldn’t be enslaved by truth.
So anyway, I didn’t expect those thoughts to come out. I just started typing and the words came. I’ve discovered some new questions to think about. I just need to remember to cherish the journey and not store the answer away in a trophy book.
Thanks Kurt, you’ve given me even more than I could’ve asked for.